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We move through life accumulating layers of clothing and weight; of personality; social identity; memories and past experiences that we hold as shaping who we are. In the surrender to awakening, we die to who we thought we were. This death occurs again and again; even as we see the grasp loosen, as we feel the spaciousness of True Self dancing through and around us as we move in the world, there are many, many deaths to come. We are actually returning to the nakedness with which we entered, wide-eyed, naked, non-identified. ( I wonder, how much of parental perception infiltrates the placenta? What is the interaction between the consciousness of the embryonic baby and the mother for instance? Fascinating to enquire)

Yet we become naked, stripped of defence mechanisms, behavioural patterns in which to hide; self-esteem built on achievement or status. There is the realisation that no-one is here. No “one”, only That. There are levels of witnessing that move more and more subtly to the Absolute perceiving itSelf.

In preparing for a first public event after an absence of two and a half years, it was fascinating to watch the patterns of the egoic self-doubt and worthlessness arise. Regardless of what had gone before, the mind desperately attempts to diminish. Awareness was held that this was necessary and welcome releasing, yet this did not make any of it less intense. And as it came closer and the commitment to showing up did not lessen, relief came in the joke of realizing (again) that there is no-one to show up; no-one to “do” anything”. There is only form, offering itself as a vehicle for the Divine; fulfilling some part of its calling. So nothing to identify with; not be attached to an outcome or even the experience. It is to say yes to the call and surrender utterly to Divine intelligence as to how that moves; what that looks, feels and tastes like.

The invitation is to be naked. No agenda. No investment. What it is essential is to be pure in our intention and heart. Then, whether things apparently go well or awry is actually meaningless. Each one of us that shows up serves the greater intelligence. There is full surrender.

In the vulnerability of being totally naked,  the only thing to fall back on and into is the Goddess, Life, Source. What joy and relief to let go, to surrender even more to Her. And in the joyousness and playfulness, All come, All is Here. We are indeed newborn, creating Universes with our breath, galaxies with our heart beat. Awakening occurs through each differentiated essence-in-form and through our unified intentions. Together we remember, we strip away, we love each other home in our hearts.

Come play and explore together. Helen is facilitating gatherings in the UK and USA and offers individual session work globally. Explore her site and facebook for more info and to subscribe for occasional updates.

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Just know that you are not alone.

Whatever you are feeling, however seemingly dense and impenetrable; if you are exhausted; emotional; feeling lost; wrestling in challenging body symptoms. The distortions up for releasing in the collective are epic.. Along with our own personal blueprints for soul growth and evolution…

We bleed, we cry, we get bone weary. And we get back up again.

None of it is personal.

Breathe deep into the space that is always here. The Love that infuses every aching corner, even in the darkest shadows.

Allow it all and believe nothing.

This is what we came for.

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Choice point

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We are in the Dark Moon, midway in a truly epic gateway (15 – 17 March) and approaching Spring equinox, a time of great transformation; of coming into balance; of opening more than ever before to the Divine light which returns through the portal of the dark times.

The shift yesterday was very palpable, embracing us in new levels of Cosmic light. Today there is the opportunity to offer up that which no longer serves. We are called to deeper and deeper levels of mastery in meeting what is in or through our bodies and forms. It is a time of great collective release – just look at the passion and power of the young people leading the way on societal change and gun laws in USA .

It is also suggested this is the completion of a 6 year cycle into our wholeness. So you may be witnessing emotions, stories, pain physical, emotional or spiritual rolling through your inner landscape, much of it far more ancient than your life here on this planet.

We are so lovingly invited not to dampen down or push away anything. Nothing is unacceptable. Give every voice full space with full and unattached Presence. And bring the openness of our hearts to it all. Release any investment in blame or judgement of any other- including our own self. We feel what we feel.

And then …in the graciousness of Love and time and Presence we can truly choose truth, our deepest, purest truth. Choose wisely and release all the way. And each moment, all through our daily life, we breathe and drop into this again. Let our choice be as conscious as it can be, right now and setting the template for this now and for the coming half year cycle.
We get to choose. We get to create.
And best of all, we get to be together in this wild ride.

So much love.

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Mother of all

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Divine Mother,

Mother of all form

Blessed be your expression through every mother on this planet. Every human being in form has been birthed from a mother, whether we have never known their form or however our relationship has unfolded.

May the infinite bonds of loving nurturing be healed and strengthened in the heart and cells of every Being. May both mother and father come in to wholeness in loving nurturing protection.

I offer infinite gratitude to my mother in this life, I honour your strength, sacrifices, love and kindness;
to each of my five children who are my greatest, fiercest teachers; to the biological mother of my Ethiopian daughter – I bow to you and thank you for the honour of being guardian of this soul ~ our Hearts are One;
to the mother who helped caretake my oldest daughter since she was six years old, an angel who chose to serve by taking a form that requires lifelong care;
to my grandmothers and their grandmothers, the generations upon generations of wisdom keepers, I bow.

I am feeling all the Sisters who inspire me; whom I love; who change the world and beyond; whom I have held close and those I have never met in the flesh but who reside deep in my heart. Whether you see these words or not, we feel each other.
 
I think of all the women whose daily lives are a struggle in grinding poverty, feeding and caring for children, holding families and communities together under the most testing of circumstances. I feel the young warrioresses roaring against the machine, eyes unwavering from truth. I feel the grandmothers steeped in wisdom sitting on the earth listening and singing their prayers. I feel the mountains and stars and oceans dancing with us.
Mothers, daughters, sisters, lovers. Goddesses, maidens, crones. We all chose to be part of this spectacular exploration here on planet earth.
 
To all the brave, beautiful, fierce and tender women that hold and create Life – in our wombs, through our hands and our hearts, I bow to you. We are interwoven across and through everything.
Love everyone, anyway, as much as possible. Love wholly, completely and fearlessly, in the sweet short precious moments we are privileged to share with one another. 
This is what Life is, what permeates everything, whether we believe we are alone or have beloveds we can pull close and caress. This is the fire and air that fills us.
Be bold and tender; fierce and utterly vulnerable; be You; shakti soaked, earth shaking; deep, dark and blinding light; unafraid of our vastness. Celebrating Her presence in us all.

Creating new paradigms around mothering is at the heart of my soul’s mission. As this touches every being on this planet, it is a path that demands all and that brings forth the most ancient patterns.

Each day – not just “Mother’s Day”, may we pause in our breath, in our hearts, inviting the full expression of the Divine Feminine to move through our beings and into Gaia, her grids of light and beyond. May She do so in balance and union with the all encompassing Loving Presence of Divine Father.

And so it is.
And so it shall be.

 

Helen offers herself in service to Life through one to one meetings, group gatherings, global events and activations. Connect at facebook or her site.

The new balance – Accountability, Communication and The True Voice of the Feminine

 

 

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There has been a swelling tide of unheard voices the past five months, now echoing across this blue planet. Women have spoken out, perhaps as never before in the his/her/story of humanity, against the socially acceptable and cultivated epidemic of diminishing and defining females through the abuse and distortion of sexual energy and power.#metoo. Men too have spoken who have also been victims of the misuse of sexual power, whether by either gender.

In some arenas, brave men have come forward and owned their transgressions, from subtle misjudgements to devastating actions.  I have also read women fiercely taking responsibility for their part in misusing sexual and emotional energy in relationships. This is not the space to dive deeply into this, other than to note that, in the circles I connect with globally, I have witnessed the conversation evolving to one of honouring the power of this voice and transparency and then moving to the next step – TOGETHER – of how male can support female; how the Sacredness of sexuality can be reclaimed by all beings, whatever gender or sexual orientation; how each sex can forgive the other, and her/himself. And most key of all, how the distortions inherent within each expression of Source – as predominantly “feminine” or “masculine”- beyond personal stories – can be more fully revealed, met in compassion and love and alchemised.

This wave has a mighty wake, moving through the entire collective, not only those in conscious reflection but the vast majority who are not. The key themes are

Accountability and Communication

leading to the third – Speaking up –

the voice of the True Feminine, clear, strong Loving, liberated and evolved to be the transmission of the Feminine Divine Herself.

I am not describing victim energy nor one of blame – not in its purest motivation and how I have experienced its rising. It is a very, very long suppressed expression from deep and vulnerable places and, in the courageousness and purity of this, is a genuine invitation for accountability. Note,  accountability does NOT have any trace of blame, shame or judgement. It is CLEAR, CLEAN and authentic. It is fully honest. This last point can be generally missed.

If we hold invitation and space for another being to be truly accountable, we are neither seeking to apportion blame on them; to hold onto anger, resentment or other emotions. Accountability is deep liberation for each party. The one owning their words or actions has the opportunity to integrate shadow aspects, to find compassion, forgiveness and greater love for one’s own self. The recipient may find it easier to rest in acceptance and possibly, in their own time then find their way too to forgiveness, compassion and some form of peace. These principles apply whether we are talking about a minor disagreement or horrific abuse. The scale of the suffering is the primary difference.

Accountability supports freer communication. I often see the flow of the infinity symbol (figure eight) in relation to so many aspects of Life. As so for communication, expressing and receiving, with natural pauses for integration and inner reflection. Meeting in the centre, the zero point. S.T.O.P. – Stop, think, observe, pause. ( Deepak Chopra).

And so, as we go deeper into this field, beyond blame; through the personal; through the gateway of embracing pain more wholly than before; through even more expansive Love, we engage in a “new” conversation with the Cosmos itself; a new sense of relationship that (perhaps) we are tentatively touching on. Re-membering wholeness.

This is the time for BALANCE of male and female energies. Our next evolutionary step as a species – or at least one of them – is founded on Divine Union – healing the split between the masculine and feminine.

“The true “twin flame” is a climactic turning point in Creation, a turning on the heel, a re-direction home. A liberation from bondage. A wild and surreal, ancient song that heals the entire Universe, right in the place that it’s heart was broken, so it could speak again.

Together, we can hold the earth and sky, and as guardians and ancient seeds we will fulfill the promise we made at the beginning of the world, and go home together, unified with the whole of Divine Creation with Love.” – Alison Nappi

Divine Union creates the pathway for the next upgrade in consciousness itself through this embodied quest. We can only do this in form. Here and now. And in relationship. And – given that aeons of wounding and distortion are releasing for transmutation – it is a path that demands every molecule of devotion in the most grounded ways. It requires great clear-sightedness if we are not to get blinded by the sea of unconscious patterning that is thrown, up nor find ourselves unwittingly replaying them.

“We want close relationship more than anything, and simultaneously we want nothing to do with it. The archaic fears of abandonment and engulfment circle in the psyche of the personal and the collective.” – Matt Licata

It requires a willingness to open the heart again and again in the face of the energy of betrayal, abandonment and separation that lay in the beginnings of this path. Not the very beginning, the point where this wound came to be.

My deep inner knowing is that it was before Lemuria and Mu. Before Yeshua and Magdalene – yet these times and Beings have been some of the points in space and time where some of this work has been done.  It was – most likely – at the first breath of differentiation into form and has been carried into and explored through every cycle of the evolution of consciousness. Aeons of work that have been preparing for what is now possible.

There have been many Sacred partnerships on Earth and elsewhere across time and space. Yet it is my sense-knowing that it is only in this now that the male-female aspects of Divinity can whole and evolve. We cannot know the numerous Cosmic factors why this is so,  yet the human experiment is at an unprecedented point where this has the potential for success.

The Christ essence is returning to Earth. Not as a man but in the Sacred spark within each being. And the Divine Feminine Christ is anchoring, heart by heart. She is Here. The two are of course not separate but two emanations of the One and in their embodiment, Divine Union has, now, the chalice to come forth.

Drop all illusions that Divine Union is any fairy tale love story.  Rather, it will cleave us to our core, shatter us into innumerable shards and rebuild us from the very stuff of Life itself. New and yet unknown. Never before birthed in form. We are the carriers, the forerunners that can lead the flowing wave; the charge of light upturning the citadels, burning the false Gods, courageously diving into the fire and darkness and thrusting the new earth through the Cosmic yoni into the luminous adoration of Ma. We are the Ones we have been waiting for.

Blessed be on our courageous hearts.

To be continued….

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Grace and Desire

 

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There is a dance at the heart of every awakening Being. Of the eternal longing to KNOW and BE the fullness of our absolute Divinity – in form. And the fear and aching grief of the countless times we have felt that we have fallen short of the immeasurable.

As I ponder deeply into this well once more with Beloved souls, I witness the voice within that still – and always – speaks to being not enough. The hallmark of ego – not good enough; there is always something or some place that is better. Something to strive for (and therefore some failing in that there is always a place to reach for).

I have hugely more compassion and love for this expression of self that needs to be heard. I understand her somewhat more, her voice so very familiar. Indeed the voice that led and shaped my life for the first decades. I am again and again practising calling her and all her pain into the unconditional embrace of Love. Perhaps this will be a lifelong embrace.

And as I slow and breathe bigger, She is Here. She who has no name, no identity. Indeed no voice as Her voice is all voices. She is the stars. She is the blackness that absorbs everything. She is the magnitude of the Earth, Her soft, moist fecundity merging with any sense of this body.

Longing and longed for re-member into what Is, always.

Helen is honoured to serve through one to one consultations in person and globally. A programme of events for 2018 is currently germinating. You can sign up for occasional mailings and find out more about her work at her site, also about to be reconstructed.  Or connect on facebook.

The Core Wounding between the “Masculine” and “Feminine” aspects of Divinity.

 

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In the last twenty-four hours millions of voices have declared ” me too”, including this one. The spontaneous wave across social media calling for everyone who has experienced any form of sexual harassment or abuse to add their voice has become a phenomenon.

As the collective sea began to rise, I did not add mine lightly, not primarily through shame, but because I resist group campaigns identifying any kind of lable. And , no doubt, sensing the sickening gut churning sorrow of what was rising. What so many of us have carried for lifetimes.

Even in all the inner work I have engaged over decades, I again discovered forgotten memories which I had put aside as “normal” or in some way “my fault”. As Kali rose I knew a deeper and deeper reclaiming of the Truth we are all so desperate for. Of Union. Washed through with love and compassion for each of us experiencing this pain. All of it counts. All of it is the very food for Cosmic growth.

The essence of social media can be about proclaiming, especially amongst so-called conscious communities. There is little deep listening. Moreso it is an insatiable energy consumer and all that is put in is so transient. Today’s viral posts become tomorrow’s cute cat videos. In this campaign, however, I sensed a deeper call to Truth, a wide deep ache bubbling. And so, despite misgivings, I knew I had to add this one voice. Firstly, because addressing the wounding at the heart of the masculine and feminine expressions of the Divine is right at the heart of my Cosmic calling as an emissary of the Goddess. And yes of course, like EVERY female on this planet, I have my own experiences of being abused because of my gender and sexuality. I know I have also misused my own sexual energy both through repression and seeing it as my (only) place of value. I know also I have been a male many times. I have raped, abused and diminished my lovers and mothers and daughters, just as I have been abused. We all carry the primordial seeds of separation and the tension between yin and yang, however this has played out in creation and time.

It may also be time to use the very tools of the establishment (internet, social media) with awareness of its many agenda of distraction and manipulation to nonetheless break through and buid new paradigms.

I have zero interest in blaming or judging. We ALL bear these wounds. Vitally, this particular call to voice is inclusive of BOTH men and women. I thirst for the brave voices of our men, both in sharing where you have been shamed or controlled by another’s sexuality and in owning where you have misused your own sexual power, consciously or unconsciously. This is about all – female or male, “perpetrator” or recipient speaking up to shatter this ancient collective wounding, with love, courage and compassion.

I am seeing a number of strands showing in this conversation. In the conscious circles I connect with, there is largely an absence of blatant judgement and victim shaming. What is just as toxic though is the spiritual whitewashing that can be blatant dissociation or subtle separation. Well-meaning attempts at “positivity” can actually be not only profoundly damaging they can be downright dangerous if they disempower one single voice from speaking out. And the denial of reality – negates our actual God/dess given opportunity to rise. To face the worst horrors and the numb normality of how our Divine essence is abused and controlled and TAKE this all the way into the forging of new Cosmic substance.

I hear the call to the masculine, to explore how the female has wounded and abused her power and to own his own misuse. I witness a willingness to DO the work of radical responsibility, internally and externally, amongst some of us. And it only takes some. One by one by one. Breathing. Feeling. Speaking out. Walking.

This declaration of courageous transparency, as well as unity, is essentially followed by #anditstopsnow #nomore. Will this engender real collective shift? Who can know, but that seed of potential is there, if nourished in pure consciousness and love, free from the pull of the oldest, achiest stories of fear and blame.

This is a vast spiritual spot aching endlessly to be evolved to wholeness. A distortion in consciousness that utterly embraces every single voice and story while calling us to the Cosmic depths of the origins of both fracture and Union that I fully appreciate is still prevalent.

In the absolute and fullest embracing of our pain, a pain in every soul on this planet, we must also reach to the Stars, exhale to the Cosmos, calling in That which IS us, which created “us”, which sings to us to help fabric a new weave in the mesh of Love. As we hold each other, literally or virtually, wiping tears, breathing in the no words, all there is is Love.

I love us all in this brave endeavour.

Very much to be continued..

Helen serves consciousness and the Goddess, however, she is called. This has looked like global events, light transmissions, teaching, one to one sessions and writing. It also looks like being a mother to five beings, quiet ceremony and Being, and adoring her Beloved as they lead each other deeper and deeper into their Cosmic mission. Explore her site and facebook where you are so appreciated if you wish to connect for occasional mailings.