Many of us have – with varying degrees of conscious awareness – been working through the layers of the “Trance of unworthiness” as Chameli Ardagh terms it. Having just emerged from a personal 21 day Magdalane sadhana, coming to fullness exactly the day before I travel on pilgrimage to southern France, I reflect on the nature of the personal and collective layers of unworthiness that are particularly – but of course not exclusively – held in the feminine consciousness.
Wading through the dense layers of illusion that have been constructed to disconnect us from Truth, so many of these in women are entangled with stories about both the body and sexuality. The container for essence in this human experience. The cloak of ego in all its shapeshifting forms has been wholly adopted by mass media and consciousness as powerful and pervasive tools of control and oppression.
But as we wake up – individually and collectively – to the toxic dreams of these stories we own our courage – as spiritual warriors – to stand in all our vulnerability, in all our uniqueness, and in our power – to be seen and heard.
In the journey of this “one”, this pattern – of “unworthiness” has been strong. The classic strategy of the ego to attempt to deflect us from the magnificence of unlimited Being. As light and consciousness expand, the shadows, the wounds, may evolve, ease, purify but may not – necessarily – dissipate. They may remain – for days, weeks, years, lifetimes. Yet nonetheless, we can come to see more and more that really there is less and less “separation” between personal and collective in that in each moment that one consciousness, one soul, chooses to deeply witness and alchemise whatever is playing out, all consciousness takes a breath of expansion.
And the layers of space that emerge – in our Being, around us and through the collective offer a rich and fertile landscape for the nurturing of That which we are and have always been. As the temporary fetters of forgetfulness fall away, there is only space. And only Love. Both. One.
When you are able
To make two become one,
The inside like the outside
And the outside like the inside,
The higher like the lower,
So that a man is no longer male
And a woman, female,
But male female
Become a single whole-
Then you will enter in ~ Gospel of Thomas
What anchors and embodies is the Truth of Being, That is the Love that we are. The infinite knowing of our Self as a child of the Living Spirit.
This is ALWAYS there. Always available. Male, female, child or elder. And in the dance of human-ness we can make the choice EVERY moment. Towards the tightness of denial; the contraction of turning away or to choose Love. There is always the space of the breath and the vastness of the Sacred Heart which meets and holds every vibration that it encounters. Seeing it, acknowledging it in all its stickiness and shame. And in that, it too is Love.
We can refuse to be no less than Love. No matter how often the shadows and inner confusions call. We can hear, turn to face them and know that we are no less than Love.
Holding this space. Always.
Open the Gates
Open the gates my love
Fling them open wide
And let the light stream in.
Open the gates my love
The gates of your Heart.
For now is the time
Never to depart.
No turning back into the night.
No struggling longer with fear,
Or with doubt.
Now is the time.
May sunlight caress you,
May moonlight bathe you.
May you be held in the arms of the ancients,
Adored once more.
May you know your magnificence.
May you know your All.
May the light shine brightly,
To dissolve all walls.
No more illusion.
No more insanity.
Only the opening,
To Truth and love
© Helen Quail, Orgiva, Spain 2014
Helen assists with the expansion of consciousness and light though individual sessions, groups, workshop and global light transmissions. Contact her through her website or facebook,