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The Core Wounding between the “Masculine” and “Feminine” aspects of Divinity.

 

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“Beloved” – Autumn Sky Art

In the last twenty-four hours millions of voices have declared ” me too”, including this one. The spontaneous wave across social media calling for everyone who has experienced any form of sexual harassment or abuse to add their voice has become a phenomenon. I did not add mine lightly, not primarily through shame but because I resist group campaigns identifying any kind of lable.

 

As the collective sea began to rise, I did not add mine lightly, not primarily through shame, but because I resist group campaigns identifying any kind of lable. And , no doubt, sensing the sickening gut churning sorrow of what was rising. What so many of us have carried for lifetimes.

Even in all the inner work I have engaged over decades, I again discovered forgotten memories which I had put aside as “normal” or in some way “my fault”. As Kali rose I knew a deeper and deeper reclaiming of the Truth we are all so desperate for. Of Union. Washed through with love and compassion for each of us experiencing this pain. All of it counts. All of it is the very food for Cosmic growth.

The essence of social media can be about proclaiming, especially amongst so-called conscious communities. There is little deep listening. Moreso it is an insatiable energy consumer and all that is put in is so transient. Today’s viral posts become tomorrow’s cute cat videos. In this campaign, however, I sensed a deeper call to Truth, a wide deep ache bubbling. And so, despite misgivings, I knew I had to add this one voice. Firstly, because addressing the wounding at the heart of the masculine and feminine expressions of the Divine is right at the heart of my Cosmic calling as an emissary of the Goddess. And yes of course, like EVERY female on this planet, I have my own experiences of being abused because of my gender and sexuality. I know I have also misused my own sexual energy both through repression and seeing it as my (only) place of value. I know also I have been a male many times. I have thus raped, abused and diminished my lovers and mothers and daughters. We all carry the primordial seeds of separation and the tension between yin and yang, however this has played out in creation and time.

It may also be time to use the very tools of the establishment (internet, social media) with awareness of its many agenda of distraction and manipulation to nonetheless break through and buid new paradigms.

 

I have zero interest in blaming or judging. We ALL bear these wounds. Vitally, this particular call to voice is inclusive of BOTH men and women. I thirst for the brave voices of our men, both in sharing where you have been shamed or controlled by another’s sexuality and in owning where you have misused your own sexual power, consciously or unconsciously. This is about all – female or male, “perpetrator” or recipient speaking up to shatter this ancient collective wounding, with love, courage and compassion.

I am seeing a number of strands showing in this conversation. In the conscious circles I connect with, there is largely an absence of blatant judgement and victim shaming. What is just as toxic though is the spiritual whitewashing that can be blatant dissociation or subtle separation. Well-meaning attempts at “positivity” can actually be not only profoundly damaging they can be downright dangerous if they disempower one single voice from speaking out. And the denial of reality – negates our actual God/dess given opportunity to rise. To face the worst horrors and the numb normality of how our Divine essence is abused and controlled and TAKE this all the way into the forging of new Cosmic substance.

I hear the call to the masculine, to explore how the female has wounded and abused her power and to own his own misuse. I witness a willingness to DO the work of radical responsibility, internally and externally, amongst some of us. And it only takes some. One by one by one. Breathing. Feeling. Speaking out. Walking.

This declaration of courageous transparency, as well as unity, is essentially followed by #anditstopsnow #nomore. Will this engender real collective shift? Who can know, but that seed of potential is there, if nourished in pure consciousness and love, free from the pull of the oldest, achiest stories of fear and blame.

This is a vast spiritual spot aching endlessly to be evolved to wholeness. A distortion in consciousness that utterly embraces every single voice and story while calling us to the Cosmic depths of the origins of both fracture and Union that I fully appreciate is still prevalent.

In the absolute and fullest embracing of our pain, a pain in every soul on this planet, we must also reach to the Stars, exhale to the Cosmos, calling in That which IS us, which created “us”, which sings to us to help fabric a new weave in the mesh of Love. As we hold each other, literally or virtually, wiping tears, breathing in the no words, all there is is Love.

I love us all in this brave endeavour.

Very much to be continued..

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Authentic Being

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Mount Shasta in early Spring

Authenticity is more and more at the core of what is thirsted for – in every aspect of this One and all it encounters. As the human collective stumbles through more gateways of activation – astrologically, deep cleansing in Gaia and political tensions –  the dances of the Cosmos are never far from awareness. Yet, as we open to the limitlessness of our true nature as timeless and multi dimensional Beings, our purpose right now, in human form is to bring All into embodiment, in this Now.

When heart and mind blast open through the veils of illusion and we awaken to Truth, there are infinite paths which can call to our passion. There can be a tremendous long-overlooked thirst revealed which demands to be met, yet holds many false avenues for a soul that may be still immature and ungrounded in the Being. The person(a) can still so easily take charge, simply clothed in apparently more appealing garments. For many of us there may be a period of months or many years where our lust for all things “spiritual” may become all consuming. This can simply shape to be another escape from reality itself; from the bliss and agony of tasting, of knowing, Truth. Further, it is so very easy to be pulled into an idea of being more evolved/spiritual/awake than family/friends/neighbour/ the bus driver and this is one of the sticky and subtle ways ego simply morphs. To the extent that we identify with ANY role and give that any value, we are invested in egoic self.

Whether we create circumstances of misery and tragedy or of abundance, we are continually emanating in tandem with the formless That which evolves All. There is omnipresent wordless communion. Nothing is unseen. Not our darkest thoughts, most shamed places. Nor our kindest actions. We exist in the holograph of the multiverse, continually vibrating between formless and form. Life is watching, breathing, stretching and simultaneously just IS.

One of the ironies of Life as a human is that we believe what we believe, in that moment! Whatever our state of consciousness, that is our “reality”. Until we know different. And it is those very thoughtforms that create what we experience before us. Each story that we crack through drops us in greater unknowingness. And the more whole-souled our surrender to the Infinite the greater the dissolution of what we have recognised as “life”. Everything that is not reality must die, again and again.

We must move through many layers of purification and initiation in order to strip away the personal, the distorted and the false emotion to even begin to taste Truth. And yet, and yet…it was always Here. It is always available. It never left. We just placed awareness elsewhere.

As we taste the Truth of Being, indescribable, inexpressible consciousness, ANYTHING that puts language or form to that is immediately a limitation. No matter how poetic or magnificent. It still has mind and therefore concept. Rather than Is. The deepest passion running through all great artistic endeavour could be said to be this call to express the inexpressible through creative energy.

“Whatever you have understood you are not. Spit it all out. Whatever you understand is not the truth. Throw it overboard. Do not try to catch hold of any concepts and cling to them. Don’t employ any words, but look at yourself as you are. Throw away every thought, every experience, everything that happens after the consciousness, the beingness comes…

Before the beingness was there, look at that, be in that state. Do not get lost in words and thoughts and ideas. Do not crave for mind knowledge and concepts in the name of spirituality. Anything that is seen and interpreted by the mind is only an appearance in consciousness, and, therefore, cannot be true. “ Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj.

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Love is everywhere

Our truest compass lies in the silence, with the awakening Divine heart. This is not the emotional heart but the Sacred Heart , the Christed centre of Love that resides in every Being. And this Heart calls forth and guides both the purification of mind and the essential opening and landing in the belly. Spiritual evolution is not about becoming more complex but actually about profound simplifying.  As the beating heart, we expand into the Infinite that IS, then breathe All That Is into and through this form, through Presence, creating, word and deed.

Each pathway of remembering and unforming-in-form is unique, with both jewels and pitfalls. No other can judge or appreciate how the unrepeatable expression of essence in form that is each One is called to wholeness and to the evolution of All. Is the butterfly that takes longer to hatch from the chrysalis any more or less than its fellow butterflies? Any more or less deserving of existing as a perfect expression of the Divine than a human, a waterfall, a star?

My heart and soul show me that the REAL core of coming to this particular planet lies in embodying on earth; not to transcend, but to awaken and bring every molecule of awakened Presence into body and action. The prevalent models of spirituality have long been patriarchal and the predominant model is one of transcendence, where we are called UP and OUT of our bodies and this earth realm. As the Divine Feminine returns to a freshly evolved balance, we can awaken to limitless Being AND be fully feeling, grounded and bloodied intuitive and sensory Beings with an umbilical cord to the pulse of Gaia and the Cosmos and our third eye firmly pressed to the Creator.

We practice not flinching to the agony but melting into it. No different than dissolving into the bliss. All of it is in our cells, our DNA, our non physical essence. We did not incarnate to BE anything, nor to become. We Are This. And That is part of the great Cosmic joke. We have nothing to prove, nor earn. Nothing to redeem. Nothing is real. And everything Is. Let us turn our nakedness to the skies and lay it upon the moist earth. All Is.

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1111 Awakening through Life

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As I returned to my writing screen, it was 11.11 – a significant portal for the awakening frequencies of the Divine to be received and integrated by humanity. The 111 codes ask us to be utterly conscious of our dreams, our thoughts and our words and to ensure that our movements in the physical realms, whether word or action come from our highest expression and awareness of consciousness.

I always feel 111 and 11.11 related to new beginnings. For of course consciousness is the Creator, the beginning, the manifester. And simultaneously completely outwith any concept of time. The reality which is present in every breath is heightened – that we are given the chance to begin afresh. This, not in terms of denying exactly where we are and all the circumstances we have created to be at this precise point, but rather arising FROM every thought and action that has gone before. As every nutrient and day of gestation creates an entirely new Being in human form on the planet when a baby is born, so all our choices and seeming failures to act in the highest alignment create the perfect, optimum conditions for this deep birthing.

It is also now eight days since my mother passed from her human body.

And six since America voted for Donald Trump to be its president.

None of it unrelated.

One of the gifts of these last days at my mother’s bedside is the knowing which may previously have drifted into being more intellectual, that EVERYTHING in my experience, in my world, is interconnected. This has dropped right down into my belly. Into absolute knowing.

My mother’s transition and the profound experiences that took place towards it; the water protectors and protests at Standing Rock; uncomfortable tensions with my siblings; my deep soul love and alchemy with my partner; my children expressing challenging responses and behaviours; my ex husband not showing up fully as a father; a dear soul sister leaving the country; the political coup in Turkey and the American elections.

All of it.

Let me breathe this circle.  Sit with me here. In the centre. When we return to this still point, we feel our column of light anchoring both into Gaia’s heart and that of Source. We reclaim our infinite strength as Divine beings playing in this human movie for a few moments. From here, we can watch the dance of all that is playing out in these movies on the world stage and on the more “personal” stage of our private lives.

A tricky and essential distinction to navigate is that of witnessing and knowing this is all illusion yet not falling into spiritual bypassing. This is sold seductively in new age thinking and often can creep into us without our noticing. At the other end of the loop is getting caught in the drama of the collective and letting ourselves believe any of it is actually real. How to acknowledge and honour pain in any Being without losing sight and knowing of what is real? Can we remember that everything is created by Divine intelligence for the evolution of consciousness?

We – as embodiments of Divine Source are here as co-creators, with free will and living in form surrounded by the density of soul amnesia. This earth school journey is one to bring Divinity into form. To live it in our human-ness – our ability to FEEL intensely; to cry and dance and laugh and make love. What a magical, majestic and joyful play we are in!

Dancing this balance is an art form that requires practice till the moment our essence leaves this plane. We can never be complacent, for the cumulative weight of conditioning rains into our bones and cells each and every day. We never become immune to that but hopefully, with dedicated intention and practices, we learn to soften it, to understand it and – crucially – not to identify with it. Perhaps we may even learn to love the healthy ego structures that allow us to function as human and in community. And anything that shows up on our personal or global horizon as manifestations of that which wishes to be acknowledged and loved into harmony.

We are all in uncharted waters in these new lands. Four years on from the 2012 gateway, we have another especially heightened window through to 1.1.17 to receive and embody higher Divine frequencies. None of this can be done when our inner work and our shadow work is not addressed at ALL levels. All are equally essential. So in the face of political instability and extremes; natural “disasters” and personal experiences of loved ones choosing to leave earth or relationships dissolving, we do our work. We walk our talk.

We let go of the temptations to judge, to feel ever so subtly “right”, vindicated or superior. We accept that every being on this planet is an equal expression of the magnificence of the Divine. That is why we are required to practice our mastery through every moment of our day (and night). Use the tools that best nourish you – particular meditations; body practices; time in nature and KNOW that you are part of a soul tribe, whether you know them directly or not. We have our families of light – many on earth, many more on other stars and galaxies. Remember to sing to each other the song of our hearts. To radiate the light of our souls, thus lighting the way for all of us who find it hard to see through the shadows at times.

Let light shine upon every heart awakening us to our true nature.

And so it is.

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Mother of Mine

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Mother of Mine

Mother of all

You’ve tended us so carefully

So we don’t fall.

Caught us and loved us

and held us so tight

When the fears and the darkness loom in the night.

 

Mother of mine

both human and Divine,

always so humble, giving and kind,

You gave so many years to us all.

So many hours,

so many tears

were wiped away by the hand that knows only Love.

 

Mother of mine,

I am so grateful you are here

and even in death you chose well and clear.

So we have these moments, these hours, these days

to thank you and love you for teaching your ways.

 

Ways based on faith in the guiding Love of the Divine

on serving and giving with no thought of self.

Your strength, majestic as a mountain,

your grace like a billowing leaf

you inspire each of us

to reach for the Truth

 

Mother of Mine,

Beloved Divine

in your human-ness you are loved and cared for

till your last breath becomes one

with the great Cosmic breath.

A pulse that never ends

and will reverberate through my blood for ever.

 

Mother of Mine.

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Dedicated to my mother, Mary on her 77th birthday today.

 

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Falling into Love, I rise.

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Dropping  away the layers, I fall, cleansed, naked, revealed.

This love flows through me,

not “mine” to retain

nor “yours” to give,

but in our purification

and our dedication,

both,

we are called to the crucible

And to BE the crucible,

Through our union.

 

A melding of alchemies

that sparks conceptions

and evolution .

 

There is a power that ripples across the Cosmos,

emanating from the belly of Mother

and the breath of Father.

 

In declaring a whole souled “Yes!” to the Divine Power,

Grace may reveal infinitely .

She fills my chest with countless galaxies; my eyes with brilliant stars.

My skin is enlivened with the dust of God, my blood richer with the fire of Love.

It is done. It is.

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Gestating

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Willow Arlenea – Birth of a Galaxy Astarte

For nine months, from early spring of last year, I wandered as a nomad in answer to a soul call that had been gestating through this lifetime. This involved letting go of everything “external” – home, financial security, and being with my children to serve in wider, deeper and more unknown ways around the planet. The call was first to North America for a month and from there knowing only that every step was absolutely directed by the Mystery, by the Goddess, I did not know where home would manifest, nor where I would rest. I was literally taken around the planet as part of the magic and weave of Life. Hawaii, Glastonbury, Bali, USA three times, Germany, Czech Republic, Netherlands and Italy.

A seed quietly grew and whispered persistently as I was called back to be again in my lands of birth – feeling only enough in my belly to know this was the essential next step. For my personal path, my service and the Divine Feminine energetics to be alchemised and grounded in Scotland and for my soul agreements with my daughter. Nine months after that journey began.

Today I am struck that it is – again – nine months later – and at the anniversary of my earth birth – that the home that so gracefully appeared within twenty four hours of setting my intent to return – was sold. And so the next cycle beckons. One of even deeper completion – of many circles – personal and practical, familial, ancestral.

Several sittings with soul family in recent weeks has focused again on the absolute wonder and awe at the intelligence and elegance of the Divine. The countless synchronicities and interconnections that prod us, manoeuvre us and awaken us to the vastly more magnificent Cosmic play.

In the smallest of happenings – from being spontaneously guided to take a different route thus enabling a whole re-shuffle of appointments that allows a friend to have the space to be supported in her deep distress – to the grandest, some of which I have written of previously. Neither is more or less Divine, more or less inspired by the kiss of the Beloved.

We are loved constantly, fiercely, tenderly and piercingly to peel of the layers of density and disguise; to lay aside the seeming seduction of the familiar and sleepwalking through our lifetimes.

More than four human births occur on this planet every second. Every second. Yet no matter how many billions of beings come to join this earth school, the miracle of birth can never be any less wondrous. Every entrance is a pushing through safety and comfort into an absolutely new world. With love and gratitude for the Mother who nurtures creation, the Divine takes exquisite expression in order to pursue a path of evolution that can only be wrought by and through the donning of unique form birthed.

And so for every birthing and re-birthing in our human experiences. Into new love. Dissolving of friendships. The transitioning of parents. Falling away of jobs, homes and structures – all dancing and evolving into something more aligned to following our greatness. We are held in the belly of Mother, nourished by her love and overseen by Divine Source. We may wriggle and squirm. We may cry. We may emerge with a blissful half smile. But we ARE born. We always were.

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Alive to Love

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How do we know when our heart is truly beating, unrestricted, unarmoured?

When do we feel our breath moving deeply into every cell?

Do we have the courage to just love, no matter what? Right here, right now. All of it.

Do I?

This journey only goes deeper. As mind and heart clarify and purify; as the body cells are washed and renewed, the choice in this breath is startlingly simple. Whatever the mind or the wounded ego parts may wish to tempt with. The choice is to love.

There is no “wrong” loving when we focus on clear intent and unconditional expression. There is no place for guarding or holding back. In fact it is the very fierceness, the relentless and the infinite tenderness of our loving that transforms the person we are with. And of course further purifies our own self.

I have written often that the path of the heart is not for the faint – hearted. It asks every last drop of courage. It asks that we are prepared to walk utterly alone with no seeming reflection of understanding or acceptance from any around us. It asks that we are willing to place EVERYTHING on  the fire. No exceptions made for our sweetest, secret dreams or our comforting life-plans. Nuh – uh.

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Tears will come. Your chest may feel like it is ripping open. The intensity of Life – of pure Love can appear utterly devastating to the personality. Because it is ultimately. Pure Divine Love flowing through us in human form can only call us back to our true nature. Our balance and guardian is our own loving nature. The more generously and committedly we can extend this to all parts of our own self and embrace us, the more rooted our foundation from and through which to flow Divine Love.

Our aliveness never ends. Our essence is eternal and infinite. But in the precious gift of this human dance, the more we embody – fully allowing the experience of our bodies, our emotions, our sexual energy – NOT identifying with them nor being led unconsciously by them but absolutely opening to the richness of the human experience, we bring more and more of Source, Divine Love into form, expanding, expanding Life itself.

So when the heart is wide open and raw; when tears pour; when the mind spins or the body aches, in this breath celebrate that there is the gift of this lifeforce pulsing through us.

We are alive to Love.

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